Vociferate: Planning my proposals

ppl might think that i am a little crazy to think about lvl 2's self proposal but i am planning for it now and i think it would be very wise to think of as many ways as possible to deal with the abject as well as symbolic items to use to represent stuff related to my theme.  

i was walking around serangoon north avenue 1 and 2 this afternoon after class and i realised that i like to check out shops selling joss paper and other offerings.  

i checked out the designs on the paper money and thought they looked really good.  thick bold lines with minimal colours on them like that of the art nouveau movement in Alphonse Mucha's time.  the style is different but the use of thick bold lines in floral patterns infusing chinese elements like the lotus and chinese lettering on the paper money was actually very stylised and pleasant to look at.  upon closer inspection about the shop, i realised that everything about the shops interested me. Especially the paper cars, slippers, shirts... they all looked so realistic and for a moment, i imagined using litho to print these designs onto the thin pieces of joss paper in the past.  or woodcut, or even lino...

and another idea sparked. 

final proposal could be a whole set up of hand printed paper money and i could develop my own stylized designs on cars, slippers, purses for the dead.  

I am catholic(by birth i have no choice but i hate being one) but why do up a whole set about another religion?  this would definitely spark some controversy as i use sarcasm to question the existence of another world- the netherworld, hell.  Tie in religion and i could merge variations of hell from the prespectives from the hindu religion too as well as from the viewpoint of the muslims. How sure are we about this other world?  and the possibility of it causes a void. Then existentialism could be torn into the topic as i broaden it and incorporate other elements to create my own hardcore set.  

And i still want to plaster cast my body, put my head away, paint it...................... live my dream of being a mortician and pathologist, and being an artist at the same time.  the void exists here.  Being an artist, in time there could be a chance that i become a mortician or pathologist or whatever i want and that void makes people think, fear, and feel mixed emotions.  There is also a possibility that i wake from the dead and come alive again because GOD says its not time yet..................................

The living and the dead.... so much i can explore and develop.   

i need to believe in myself and get down to planning hardcore stuff.