its quite rare for this witch to actually buy cds but ... i got two cds today! both from different places. it's time i learnt how to appreciate.  





aspidistrafly- i hold a wish for you

i love how the album's produced; in an accordion photo album featuring photography by April Lee one of the two members of the band. this very album that i own now happened to be in the cd player for preview when i was back at asylum studios and i couldn't help but put them on to get a short glimpse of the sound.  i fell in love immediately as it transported me into the scenes of great fields and blue skies, just like that on the album cover.  

electric president - sleep well

i came across this band whilst listening to last.fm online and got some songs like insomnia and label my mind, blown downloaded.  whilst having the cd previewed, the first track made my ears perk up, but i know there're deeper meanings to the songs so i need to listen to it again to do the producers justice.  i cant listen to music as i did in the past.  i've been too shallow.  

think we kinda annoyed the shop person after previewing so many cds. whoops. sorry for the trouble , lady. 0; )

going back to get another one. sorry i forget abt you red one.

induction
muffins
the convos
songs for her
xx stops away
falling down
ants

today i prefer the red apple over green apple

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http://www.geocities.com/rmauskopf/home/

freaking talented boy.

the master of illusions


brett helquist

kevin colden
fishtown

wormwick

ben temple

lee bermelo

flight
fables

idol photography

framk milter

alan moore

gris grimily
eisner award
halograph

http://organisationofillustratorscouncil.blogspot.com/

somebody doesnt like the shallow illustrative works , and the comments that go along with them. heh.

http://www.keiththompsonart.com/

there was something else billy told me to check out argh forgot what it was, the ink has been washed off my arms.


serigraph




http://www.superheadz.com/bbf/


ttp://www.commonwealthfoundation.com/culturediversity/craftawards/


http://changingminds.org/principles/objectivity.htm



cynical

http://pameranposkad.wordpress.com/participants/

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eo4rW-PRQ_U&feature=related

http://home.att.net/~ruthgill/variety/procrastination.htm

http://www.bartleby.com/104/121.html

i'm such an idiot. today's the only day in my life that i arrive late for school. well yes its the hols already but i forgot entirely that i had to clear the workshop by 5pm. 5 PM!!@!@#!# !@# and i arrived at like, close to 6!! what an idiot. i guess i was so used to hanging out in school till after hours that i just overlooked everything. argh. what an idiot. sorry mada for all the inconvenience caused. argh.

after packing everything outside the workshop, returned stuff back to studioland and went to look for floaty at the staff pod. had a good talk with Sanjay, then left for tau hway with floaty. i appreciate everything floaty's advices and how she's really trying to help, but stubborn as i am, i'm unable to accept it all yet. i might in time to come, when something happens, but for now its not soon.

my works are juvenile. need detachment. need to be objective. need to learn from those who are doing well. need to change working habits. need to work smart. need to strategise. need to REMEMBER goals and reason for being.

i have enough meals to last someone 30 days

my current inactivity here's due to the upcoming assessments. but will be going for this to support Patrick . i do updates mostly on facebook now. post more pics in the albums there more than i should, and i refuse to admit that i'm addicted. well, addicted's not the word i find, more like i wanna be organized and therefore, anal.

been crazily in love with Copeland, The Album Leaf, Death Cab for Cutie, Rachael Yamagata, This will Destroy You, The observatory.

Also in love with Kid-O(very addictive)

And lastly, in love with school. But the current displacement messes with my mind.

HE did it again.

HE told me my art is rubbish. that i am a devil.

struggling to survive

i realised after critic today that what mada said was right. i need to try to distance myself from my works so that my personal emotions will not affect my being.

today during my first critic session, i broke down again. i failed to go past the 5th or 6th sentence of my print out "script". i tried to pull myself together but i struggled with the continuation as my speech collapsed again when all the ill memories came rushig into my mind. the words that trigger the tears brought me back to the past when tbe event took place and i relived it on the spot.

my focus was off and amidst the abrupt pauses, i tried very hard to continue with the presentation, which got really chaotic.

anyways, i thought negatively of my critic at first because i felt i didnt get the feedback i needed. the students didnt comment much. i was told that my works are too literal and it would be good to try using metaphors instead. i got good response on tomatogirl being ambiguous and leading the viewer to the character. to be continued .. .

jung's theories
http://www.susanhendricks.com/jung.htm

theprimal wound
http://209.85.175.104/search?q=cache:Dzqvq5oWJZQJ:www.ksattach.us/wsg11-12-06.pdf+the+primal+wound&hl=en&ct=clnk&cd=5&client=safari

http://www.psychosynthesispaloalto.com/books/primalwound.html

http://books.google.com/books?id=0VrpUvziME0C

http://books.google.com/books?id=IWfVSwsuPLoC&pg=PA231&lpg=PA231&dq=the+primal+wound+by+john+firman+quotes&source=web&ots=1fPrwDgVwr&sig=gwdv27nFV-nuxCv1gcKadDTyhzg&hl=en&sa=X&oi=book_result&resnum=3&ct=result
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"Changing the way we look at others"
http://www.learntoquestion.com/class/archives/2000-2001/galleries/facinghistory/essays/source/8.html


metaphor
http://www.geocities.com/theschizophreniamyth/metaphor.html


human nature and continuing human existence
http://condition.org/humexis.htm

hannah arendt
http://www.iep.utm.edu/a/arendt.htm

the human condition
http://www.thehumancondition.org/

Alterity
http://www.albany.edu/~jej84/Dickinson/alterity.htm

On Sartre and Self-Consciousness
http://www.janushead.org/JHSummer98/HulyaGuney.cfm

Psychological trauma book
http://books.google.com/books?hl=en&id=qyFoYQBKScYC&dq=what+is+psychological+trauma&printsec=frontcover&source=web&ots=NYJ4BmezH4&sig=YxNudixDapoeulfHRtUXMZxseeU&sa=X&oi=book_result&resnum=8&ct=result#PPA4,M1

subjectivity and otherness
http://books.google.com/books?id=IBdUongxZjgC&pg=PA4&lpg=PA4&dq=psychoanalysis+of+lacan+and+otherness&source=web&ots=enpUQAmptl&sig=MtRlwOuX7UONo97ZdrRCxF6kvSI&hl=en&sa=X&oi=book_result&resnum=9&ct=result#PRA1-PT1,M1



can there be world without othering?
http://www.learntoquestion.com/class/archives/2000-2001/galleries/facinghistory/essays/source/t-other-antonius.html

Passenger seat
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hy8m90clHgw&NR=1

taxidermy

tom waits
outside good inside bad
skillet
martika
luka
concrete angel

presentation today.

a discussion about hatching.  

http://www.umich.edu/~ece/student_projects/pamela_illustrated/engraving.durer.knight.gifhttp://www.umich.edu/~ece/student_projects/pamela_illustrated/engraving.durer.knight.gifhttp://www.umich.edu/~ece/student_projects/pamela_illustrated/engraving.durer.knight.gif

- says: (1:03:36 AM)
is cross hatching really hard?
- says: (1:03:48 AM)
i don't think that drawing was really even strictly hatching!
TOMATO GIRL sayss: (1:04:33 AM)
it is hard for me 
when i hatch, the lines tend to curve 
when i want it straight 
- says: (1:04:53 AM)
but what i meant was i thought i saw you drawing in pen before
TOMATO GIRL says: (1:05:10 AM)
yar i attempt to draw in pen 
and i try to hatch
but its not working somehow 
i was told 45 degrees 
for the line 
- says: (1:06:00 AM)
the direction of line plays a part, i feel it should be more determined by the form of the object
TOMATO GIRL sayss: (1:06:10 AM)
aha 
that i am unsure 
and i don't know how to do hair
- says: (1:07:06 AM)
hmmm what kind of drawing are you trying to do?
TOMATO GIRL sayss: (1:07:19 AM)
hehe... like goya and hogarth 
that kindd
but i felt i couldnt that's why i did the wood carving instead
and i asked ocean , she told me about resting my hand at a comfortable sspot and then move the wrist with the little finger as a pivot 
TOMATO GIRL says: (1:09:06 AM)
dont know man 
its nothing serious la.  
just that i find difficulty in doing it 
- says: (1:10:27 AM)
ah ok hmmm
TOMATO GIRL says (1:10:29 AM)
and i go by instinct 
- says: (1:10:30 AM)
takes practice i guess
though i dont really understand the pivot thing
TOMATO GIRL ,"i was a criminal for wanting to go to school on a public holiday" says: (1:10:40 AM)
so sometimes it turns out wrong 
yar 
- says: (1:10:45 AM)
oh yeah, i do too
TOMATO GIRL says: (1:10:48 AM)
i think i need alot of time too 
TOMATO GIRL sayss: (1:10:49 AM)
oooh u go by feel ah 
- says: (1:10:56 AM)
yeah haha
TOMATO GIRL saysys: (1:10:58 AM)
like over do la 
sometimes 
- says: (1:11:00 AM)
no technique
yup
TOMATO GIRL sayss: (1:11:09 AM)
oooh ?  i thought u knew the technique 
- says: (1:12:07 AM)
but i think if your line control is good and consistent, you should be able to get it to look how you want? it's just about how much to go over a part to get the tone you want?
TOMATO GIRL says: (1:12:13 AM)
sometimes i find that when the hatch is too erm... "empty"  like when the crosses get too wide, it looks quite ugly 
- says: (1:12:24 AM)
yeah i guess that could happen
TOMATO GIRL says: (1:12:28 AM)
yar 
dont know how to do that
but i see that in ur sketch that one i commented on 
- says: (1:12:48 AM)
line weight matters too?
TOMATO GIRL says: (1:12:56 AM)
oh  change pen ah 
- says: (1:13:13 AM)
i think you could, but i never really tried that before haha
TOMATO GIRL sayss: (1:13:18 AM)
hmmx 
arghhhhhhh need time need practice but no time arghhh
- says: (1:14:11 AM)
just simple drawings?
TOMATO GIRL sayss: (1:14:31 AM)
yarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr need to practicee 
- says: (1:14:57 AM)
i just saw this
http://www.umich.edu/~ece/student_projects/pamela_illustrated/engraving.durer.knight.gif
hahahaha
engraving pfff
TOMATO GIRL sayss: (1:15:16 AM)
yar la 
a;incoianscd
dont know how maaaaannnnn 
i wonder how the old masters practice in their time 
- says: (1:15:57 AM)
i think about the spaced out thing? you could try to push your values more, so you actually get more greys?
TOMATO GIRL sayss: (1:16:10 AM)
in pen ? 
- says: (1:16:19 AM)
so you won't have a lot of large negative spaces
- says: (1:17:06 AM)
cause really not a lot of things are a pure white, but you sort of have to adjust the contrast in your mind too? decide where you want your darkest tones to be
TOMATO GIRL sayss: (1:17:50 AM)
yarp true 
- says: (1:18:34 AM)
isn't it actually harder to do 2-tone drawing?
or shading rather
TOMATO GIRL says: (1:18:48 AM)
in pencil ? 
- says: (1:19:00 AM)
i don't know, anything, like just black and white
TOMATO GIRL sayss: (1:19:14 AM)
dont know man 
like vector image in just black n white ? 
- says: (1:19:27 AM)
yup
TOMATO GIRL says: (1:19:35 AM)
haa i think that's ok 
- says: (1:20:14 AM)
hahah you're printmaker what, that's pretty much what you have to do for screenprints isn't it, if you leave out halftones
TOMATO GIRL sayss: (1:21:25 AM)
hey don't classify me as a printmaker.  that;s only my major .  we still do painting and sculpting too
hmmx ... 
- says: (1:21:39 AM)
hahaha okok just kidding
TOMATO GIRL sayss: (1:22:27 AM)
hmm... for stencils and for linework yes 
- says: (1:22:38 AM)
ah yes stencils
TOMATO GIRL ,"i was a criminal for wanting to go to school on a public holiday" says: (1:23:07 AM)
like paper cut oooh i love papercuts (even though i've only done one my entire life) 
- says: (1:23:18 AM)
ahaha
TOMATO GIRL says
have u tried ? 
- says: (1:23:57 AM)
nope
TOMATO GIRL says (1:26:18 AM)
not ur kind of thing is it 
- says: (1:26:33 AM)
mmm i don't really know what that is? haha
TOMATO GIRL ,"i was a criminal for wanting to go to school on a public holiday" says: (1:26:37 AM)
huh
paper cutting ? 
- says: (1:26:47 AM)
yeah
TOMATO GIRL ,"i was a criminal for wanting to go to school on a public holiday" says: (1:28:20 AM)
its like a build up of layers of colour paper under black linework that defines the image 
it can be 2-tone too 
- says: (1:28:50 AM)
oh okay
hmmm
right, yup never tried it
probably did digitally, but haha not actual cutting
TOMATO GIRL sayss: (1:29:46 AM)
http://www.scherenschnitte-online.de/galerie/FrameSet.htm
- says: (1:30:22 AM)
haha shucks
i can never do that
like chinese papercuts
TOMATO GIRL says
yar
wait i'm trying to find a pic of one that has layers 
there's this japanese artist that does it so beautifully
- says: (1:33:02 AM)
oh ok
TOMATO GIRL says: (1:34:08 AM)
argh nvm nxt time